You know, sometimes I wish life were more like the movies and like books. I wish an angel or ghost or something could come to you and show you what life would have been like.... I wonder what my families life would have been like had my dad not gotten out of the navy and we had gone to Italy. I wonder if he hadn't of gone to that bible institute at the ruckmanite church. I wonder if we hadn't of moved to one of a half-dozen states. I wonder if when the guy I was dating in college called my dad what might have happened had my dad not said no (my dad thought he was someone else). I wonder what if I never went to bible college at all. There are so many choices we make in life. When you read those choose your own adventure books as a kid you can read every ending if you want, or just choose one and if you don't like it, go back and choose another one. Life isn't like that though. You choose a path and can never undo that choice. You can make another choice to try and go back but its like in that movie back to the future. You're just going off on a tangent. You're not really changing things. Ok, I think thats enough media references for one night lol. I'm off to bed. I'm exhausted and I have to work tomorrow. I just thought of this tonight while working my 10 hour long boring shift at work. :)